昨日は久しぶりに友人と長話した。
昼食をはさんで5時間ほど。
しばらく会ってなかったから、次から次へ出てくる出てくる、くっだらない話。
家族や同僚と違って利害関係がないからか、好んで付き合う友人は、かけがえがない。
共感することの快感を、思う存分味わって、別れた。
めちゃ楽しかった。
”藤井風さん”の話をしなくて良かった、と今、思う。
してもいいかな、なんて思ってたけど、やっぱりね、ちがうんだよね。
別に自分を偽ってるわけじゃない。
全て本音で話したし、もし、向こうからそんな話にでもなれば、ポロっと、こぼしたかもしれない。
でも、きっと、話し出したら、私の話したいことと向こうの話したいこと聴きたいことがズレちゃうと思うんだよね。
それくらい沼ってるってこと。
Yesterday I had a long talk with a friend for the first time in a while.
About five hours, including lunch.
Since we hadn't seen each other for a while, we just kept talking about trivial things.
Unlike family or colleagues, friends who you enjoy spending time with are irreplaceable, probably because they have no vested interests.
We enjoyed the pleasure of empathizing to our heart's content before parting ways.
It was absolutely fun.
Now I think it's a good thing I didn't bring up "Fujii Kaze."
I thought it might be okay to do so, but I guess that's not the case after all.
It's not like I was lying to myself or anything.
I told her everything I really thought, and if she had brought up the subject, I might have let it slip.
And I'm sure that if I started talking about him, what I wanted to talk about and what she wanted to talk about and hear would be different.
That's how deep into KAZE down I am.
