考えて迷って決めた。
サイン会抽選の申し込み。
そりゃあ、本心では会いたい。
でも会わなくたって、構わない。
DJ松永さんじゃないけど、好きすぎて会いたくないのかもしれない。
きっと平常心でいられないから、会うのが怖い。
すでに藤井風さんの想いは充分受け止めているつもりだから、会ったところで何かが変わるってわけじゃない。
私の想いは、直接伝えない方が、むしろ伝わる気がする。
私が会ってサインをもらうより、サインをもらって喜ぶ誰かを想像した方が楽しいような気もする。
なのに応募した。
「しない」より「する」を選んだ。
抽選結果発表までの数日間を思いきり楽しむために。
だって、”Forever Young”が私の背中を押したのさ。
I thought about it and hesitated, but then I made a decision.
About applying for the lottery for that autograph session.
Of course, deep down, I want to meet him.
But it's okay if we don't meet.
Like DJ Matsunaga, maybe I just love him so much that I don't want to meet him.
I'm sure I wouldn't be able to keep my cool, so I'm afraid to meet him.
I already think I've fully accepted Fjii Kaze's heart, so it's not like meeting him would change anything.
I feel like my heart would be conveyed more effectively if I don't tell him directly.
I also feel like it would be more fun to imagine someone being happy to receive his autograph, rather than meeting him and getting an autograph myself.
But still, I applied.
I chose "do" over "don't."
So I could enjoy the few days until the lottery results were announced to the fullest.
Because "Forever Young" was what gave me the push I needed, yay.
